01/04/04

I was thinking about if there was a poem competition for school, what i would write, and the words flowed like magic from my fingertips. I was left water eyed at the end, but i swear its my best work yet.

It was 01/04/04
when I woke up that fateful morning
I went to sleep thinking
good pranking tomorrow
instead I woke up to teary eyed people
who turned my life upside down
the news I heard, brought me
crashing right to the ground
father had a heart attack
he was seizing on the ground
his friend called 911
but he ended up dying on the
operating table
come with me
we're taking you to nanny and papa's
your mom will be there soon
family must stick together
said those trying to comfort me

I wanted to rage
to get out of my skin
my life was blur
and it hurt so bad
I couldn't think straight
let alone walk a line
I felt this one event
brought reality to my eyes
I needed a friend
someone to be there
but it just couldn't happen
cause I was isolated all alone

I was 9 years old
not even double digits
when I was told
my father had died
I couldn't believe it
I thought it was a joke
but then I saw my mom
and my heart leaped from my chest
and fell on the ground
waiting for the knife in
my hands, to pierce right through it
At first people didn't believe
telling me it was an awful joke to play
until I heard my schools prayers
reach me that day
suddenly I was surrounded by all those
people who cared
friends neighbors and family
colleagues just reaching out to show they there
I found my shoulders to cry on
and i tried to move on

It was many years
until I stopped crying myself to sleep
I thought about how life would be different
if that 01/04/04 never happened
I concluded it would be better
but what if this, was the plan after all?
To show me what i missing
and what i could be gaining
I will admit
I learned so much more
I opened my eyes
and exposed all the lies
that were hiding me from the truth
because i was tired of being
the one, that always needed protection
because my main shield, just go destroyed
5 years later and I'm 14 and writing
I can't believe it was such a short time ago
I still think about it at night
but it's easier to put away
my mind is at more peace
but once in awhile,
I let those tears come
to remind me of that while
that friends and family
neighbours and colleagues
reached out there hands
to help me in such a situation
that I felt I was drowning

I look back and see
what a life lesson was taught
I wish there was another way
to learn it
but sometimes it takes
such a horrible thing
to make stubborn people
like myself, realize such things
and on that 01/04/04
I went from being a kid
to jumping 4 years ahead.

*sigh* Comment, feedback please!

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