Featured Article  Can you know too much?

by: Anonymous_Omniscient Anonymous_Omniscient 8th April 09 - Posted in: User Articles
Is it possible to know too much?

Often in my life, I find myself with people, who wonder about why something is what it is, or how something works. I find myself explaining to them the inner workings of the object in question, why it is what it is, why it does what it does. I find that they quickly become annoyed and agitated by this, I don't mean to be annoying, I don't mean to be a smart-ass, I'm only trying to be helpful.

I ask again, can you know too much?

I often find myself thinking of the saying: Ignorance is bliss, a simple quote, that means so much to me.

Often I wonder, what would life be like, if I were ignorant of it all, just the same, wandering on, unknowing, uncaring?

I find myself feeling alone so much in life, I always strive so hard to fit in with people, I make ridiculous jokes, and strive for acceptance of them, to make people laugh, to feel part of the crowd, to fit in...

Yet for all this, I still feel so alone, I have friends, yes, but I often feel just as I did in my Primary school. A friend for the advantage I give them, knowing the answers, helping them succeed. I don't mind doing so, I enjoy helping people, but I often feel used because of it.

So I ask again, can you know too much?

I'm not all knowing, my name is based on sarcasm and humour, yet I feel segregated and alone.

I always had another fear though, as well as that of being alone, and that was of failure with effort and determination.

I have failed a lot more than I should have in life, although it could still be considered an achievement by others. I achieved A*A*AAAABBBCC at GCSE level, good? I dropped 11 grades overall on what I should have got.

I have never tried in life, and as such, have never suffered excessively as a result of failing.

I find myself at a turning point in life, one where I cannot afford to fail, so, I'm trying to try. I'm trying to put the effort in, I'm risking losing a game I want to win.

Yet it's hard for me to try, to break my habits, to conquer my fears, to risk losing what little I am.

And so I ask one last time, can you know too much?

Tags: Understanding, Acceptance, Alone,


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Loaf
Loaf 8th April 09

Googled the definition of your name, the all knowing! Infinitely wise! :)
Though I am not clever (dumb as a post), clever people, well in fact anyone who is really different is alone right? They have to try and change who they are to try and fit in but then that is bad in itself as you are not being yourself and if you are not being yourself, you are not going to be happy. I think.

Anonymous_Omniscient
Anonymous_Omniscient 9th April 09

With thoughts like that, and you think you're dumb as a post... the irony eh? :P

I sort of wandered off my original topic, although it's all still loosely related, but hey, that's the human mind, right? A jumble of interlinked thoughts all squashed together, fired through pathway after pathway, an infinite loop, with limited input and output capacities lol.

Loaf
Loaf 9th April 09

Lol, I don't know, that just randomly came out but im still not smart :P I just good in a very very very specific way :)

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